Monday, June 1, 2009

Spirituality where you find it....

I'm not a religious person. I identify myself as Jewish, with Pagan undertones. I've studied several differnt religions over the years and Judaism still feels like "home" to me. I definitely cannot accept Christianity. It just does NOT work for me. If you, the reader, are a Christian I have no animosity towards you...UNLESS you try to prove your religion is the ONLY way.

For years I was active in a Conservative Jewish congregation. I was very observant, to the point of being considered by other Jews as Orthodox for many years. There were a number of reasons that I had to move away from that path. None of them need to be elaborated here. I was very secure in my community. It was an extension of my family.

Always the questioner, I stumbled upon what I'll term neo-Paganism. There were many things I liked there. I actually found it fairly easy to blend my Pagan beliefs with my Jewish ones. Another extension of my "family", now with the Pagans I studied with. This was all fairly good. It was home.

However, once my son graduated from high school I decided it was time for me to explore outside my safe community. My son's father and I divorced on friendly terms...Yes, it is possible to be friends after a divorce. So I packed up all my "stuff" (thoughts of George Carlin and his routine about "stuff" and where to put it) and moved in with friends. Well, that lasted less than a year. Problems finding work and the guilt of being supported by someone who at times really resented me, sent me on my way again.

This time I headed south with my "stuff". I met my current partner and moved in with her. I literally followed her home and she had to keep me. That relationship has worked out very well, but I was still stumbling around trying to find my spiritual home.

So, that's where I am right now. I have new family...still connected to the old, just not as close geographically. My spiritual quest continues. Not sure just where it's leading but I'll figure that out as I go.

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